This is a blog post. It contains opinions and personal experiences.
Today marks 100 days without using any drugs or alcohol.
While it may not seem like that long of a time to a “normal” person, it felt like a lifetime living in the grips of addiction. The past decade has largely been overshadowed by loss, numbness and failed attempts to get clean.
I’ve always said that hubris is the most dangerous thing in recovery. Today, however, I will cut myself some slack and allow myself to feel like I accomplished something for the first time in far too long.
On this Thursday, I feel healthier than I have in years.
I’m sure that some of the issues I caused while actively using to escape reality and numb myself will take years to remedy, although the position I am in now shows objective progress.
To be honest, I would’ve made substantial headway by simply staying clean alone.
But the fact that I’ve finally taken a program seriously in addition to abstinence has undoubtedly made a difference.
To say any of this was easy would be a lie. Cycling through rehab facilities, tarnishing relationships and for years abusing myself mentally and physically are not things I’d wish upon anyone.
However, here I am.
The journey of sobriety is neverending, and I could easily slip up the moment I publish this post and relapse.
But for the first time in years, I can say with confidence that, at least for today, I will not.
I’d like to thank my family, girlfriend and friends I’ve met along the way for keeping me afloat over the years; without their support, I don’t believe any of this would’ve been possible.
To be honest, I likely wouldn’t be here today if it weren’t for them.
Here’s to another 100 days. And hopefully plenty more.
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